Nightmares and daydreams

Tossing and turning in a bed. Flashes of strange images and a wave of emotions you can’t quite grasp. Why are you feeling this way and where do these nightmares come from? I’ve never liked traveling. Once I reach the destination, I am excited to explore and meet new people. I try the local food and go out of my way to find the hidden spaces no one wants to go. However, the rat race of flights, airports, interstates, and gas stations are the worst places in all of human existence. The petri dish of humanity is summed up by the endless hours spent stuck in these places. I will always despise them.

I have never been so depressed in my life as I have been in the dark and at times dank hotel rooms. Something about the slight smell of cleaning disinfectant mixed with the flop sweat of the those who stayed there before you add to this. I always feel unclean even after taking a shower in that room, wherever it may be. The water stinks of bleach, the beds are something I would be terrified to take a black light to. That being said having gone a week or two at a time without a shower, a warm bed or a hot meal, I have nothing to complain about. Knowing all of this, I still end up dreary and depressed after a day or two in a hotel room.

I can never give up traveling, I know that for sure. I came from a small town in the middle of nowhere and stayed there for twenty plus years. I left only a handful of times for work. I knew from the first time I got on an airplane. I can remember how small I felt seeing my home shrink in front of my very eyes. I have seen the Empire State Building, I have seen Mount Rainier in Washington, I have seen the empty deserts of Arizona and climbed the boulders of the Garden of the Gods in Colorado. All those hours waiting in lines, sitting in cramped plane seats an sleeping in dark and dreary hotel rooms seems worth it. Well, not really but I am glad to get wherever I am going and have enjoyed those destinations quite a bit, and a fair bit of drinking the beginning, middle, and end helps.


For once you have tasted flight you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return.

– Leonardo Da Vinci

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